A Love That Makes Everything Else More

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–Kate Rose

It’s not that she doesn’t need him
Or only wants him
Ego satisfying lust
It’s just that she doesn’t need him
To be her
She doesn’t need him to define her spaces
Or edges
She doesn’t need him to have the same dreams she does 
To tell her yes or no
So she knows what her next move should be
She doesn’t need him to buy her the world
Or make it possible for her to believe in herself 
Because actually none of that 
Is really what matters most
None of that is about two wholes sharing their energy
Lighting the world on fire
But just because she doesn’t need him to pay for her dreams
Or become the little woman to
Tending house
And maintaining expiring gender roles 
Doesn’t mean she doesn’t need him
His soul
Energy
Because the thing with her is she doesn’t need just anyone 
She needs a someone who gives her what she can’t buy or provide for herself 
To compliment who she already is
Those aspects of life whose value exceeds any monetary quality at all
Because feeling truly understood 
Accepted
Having someone choose her
As fiercely as she chooses herself 
Someone who knows her tears are a sign of strength
And doesn’t bat an eyelash 
When once again she says I changed my mind
Because he knows he’s the one thing she won’t ever change her mind about
It’s about him
The one who can calm her storms
Call her on her shit
Make her laugh until she’s gasping for breath
And then kiss her making her loose it altogether 
It’s about a soft place to land
An arm over a curved waist at the end of a long day 
The deep exhale 
And eyes that continually look at her like it’s the first time
Every time
It’s needing him to understand that what she needs the most
Isn’t found
Will never be found
In anything he can give her
But in simply who he is
The space he shows up in for her
And the way that he gives her something no one else
Nothing else ever has
The way he
Makes life just a little more beautiful 
A little more full of light
Because for her that’s all she’s ever needed
A love
That just makes everything else more.